The drive to Vegas was easy peasy compared to LA (18 hours!). We arrived to a big spacious house were we would be spending the next 5 days preparing for USA's. We slept, drank gallons and gallons and gallons of water between all the competitors, trained and posed, and stained the toilets orange from Jan Tana! It was great to be close to fellow competitors and when show time approached, I had wicked nerves. I placed a lot of pressure on myself and expected a lot out of myself at this show and I did not finish as I had hoped. That is alright though. After many tears, times of question and disappointment and a solid break from the gym, I have collected my thoughts and I am ready to push forward to the next one. You see, this competition does not define me nor does any competition. Yes, I am a girl who will get up at 3am for cardio, eat cold salmon or tilapia (gag), and jam pack my days with food prep, training, and school work in order to achieve my dreams but win or lose, I am still me at the end of the day. I am still the girl who wishes for the world. I am still the girl who loves a snorty, stinky bulldog and would do ANYTHING for my family. I will be there for my friends when they may or may not need me and I will fight for what I love. Competitions aside, I am still J.
Ciao for now
